So depressed and feeling hollow. So tired of breathing. Evry breath is a pain.. I feel so empty, like theres nothing inside. My soul is gone, it`s no were to be found, and I don`t know if it ever will come back.. I`m so alone, evryone I thought was my friends have abandoned me.. Left me alone to die or something. No one bothers to contact me anymore, I`m just a burdon. A disseas that will kill or something. The meaning of life is gone, or has there ever been a meaning for why I should live? No one cares or bothers to acknowledge that I exist.. I`m something under their shoe. My poor heart has cryed so much that it can`t take anymore. Some days I feel like evrything I`ve belived in and worked for crashing down.. I`m in the same hole as I was before. The person that got me out of there isn`t there anymore. I`m so alone, no one understands me, they wont understand me. They think they know me but they don`t,they just judge me. No one knows me, I don`t know myself anymore. I don`t know what to do.. Why am I sitting here, typing in a journal..
My mind and body is tired.. I need to rest. For a wery long time.. No sympaty for me I don`t need it. The clown will allways be a clown..

-Death Catapillar-